alive and joyful... and learning.

I'm feeling pretty freakin ridonkulously crazy the past couple of days. I am up and down, here and there, all over the place.
My mind is mostly clear, thanks to God's grace, and only thanks to Him.

to start off....

I have great intentions. I am so excited about God's plan for my life. I want to live my life to glorify Him. I want my words and my actions to point to Him. I want the world to see that I LOVE Jesus. I owe Him all. "Every knee shall bow and every tongue confess," my friends. To Him do we owe all glory, honor, and power. NO ONE ELSE.
I want to be a light to the world, to show them how GREAT it is to surrender to the Lord. It's not a bad thing. It's hard at first, and alot of times it hurts to change. But it is so, so good. I am alive in Him. If you know me, you can see that I am passionate about my faith. There is no other way to live and be full of joy, but Jesus. I love Him, and I want to love Him more. My devotion wanes at times, i'm only human, and I need prayer and encouragement and love to get back to where I need to be some days. I am a slow learner. But God will use me. He does, all the time. I worry about failing, and I do. But change takes time. I will ALWAYS be a work in progress. He is constantly shaping me to be the woman He has in mind for me to be. And I am excited about it, guys! SO EXCITED!! I am learning to embrace the future, not fear it. With Him ALL things are possible. I am honored to be a part of my church family, and to serve them. That's my love ministry to them. I am humbled by my friends' and church family's love and kindness towards me. I don't deserve it, none of us do, but love is God's gift to us, and He wants us to share it!

Anyway, my intentions are good. So, so good.
Hoo. And along comes temptation. In some form or other. Right now it's in the form of a boy. And oh my stars, if I'm not careful, I will be making some bad decisions. Only by God's grace am I okay right now, but I need prayer and encouragement to keep on the right path. I'm excited about the minister I can be to this guy, just like I want to love on all my other friends and people I meet. But when you're attracted to someone, it's hard to think straight, amirite? Oi... I need some SRS PRAYER PLZ. MOAR PRAYERZ ARE COVETED. hahaha
God will get me through these trials. I know He will. He is faithful, so I don't need to despair. and I want to do what's right. I need to keep my wits about me and be CAREFUL what I do and say. I know there's nothing wrong with wanting affection and love (and I DO want), but there's a time for everything. and right now is not the time for this relationship. and for me there is NEVER going to be a time for hooking up. that's not how I roll. Never. If you like it, then you can put a ring on it. Then it's on like Donkey Kong, baby. I am looking foward to that time! WOO! It will SO be worth waiting for, I really believe that. and right now, that desire to wait is being put through some srs fires. Please pray for me to stay in God's will and be patient. Pray for guidance and strength. I covet your prayers.

Let me know somehow that you read this, lovies.

Praying God's peace, love, joy, and hope upon you.

Saralynn