tonight i...
- am struggling to forgive a hurt
- am wanting love and snuggles
- am wanting to laugh until my head explodes
- am eating alot of carbs which i will have to work off this weekend to not gain a pound or two
i've been patient and understanding, but enough is enough. there is such a thing as decency, and friends show each other it. if it isn't that, then screw it. i'm done reaching out. i'll be here for you if you want a loving friend, but i'm not going to spread myself out for you anymore.
Jesus, forgive my most definitely unloving actions this week as i openly bad-mouthed people who i have been angry with. please help me to think of someone outside myself during the times when I'm hurting so bad. i feel so very unappreciated and unloved. i am embarassed and angry as hell. please help me to relinquish my anger and to desire to love this person (and all who hurt me or do me wrong) and pray for them whenever i am angry or feeling wronged again. help me to forgive as You do and love everyone as You do. take away my selfish desires and thoughts. change my will to Yours, and my desires to be pure and loving as Yours. may i glorify You through my actions, and may your love shine through me.
dear friends, thank you for your love.
let's have a snuggle-time soon.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
i corinthians 13:4-7
2 comments:
I still don't see a button to follow you...
I'm glad of your decision to not let said person walk all over you, but it is worthy to realize that giving of yourself first w/out question is a good friend quality (as you said you have done already, and it's true!). Yeah, I think that my thoughts aren't gathering very well right now... Anyway, it's when this giving-of-yourself gets to be too much and unappreciated, as it is now, that you have to pull away.
I respect your decision to do so and pray that you will be able to overcome the temptation to go back...
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